Hi

I am sitting in our guest room. Oliver and Wendel are asleep and I will be joining them soon. I am thinking about how much is going to change in the next couple of months. Only four weeks until I go on FMLA at work and six weeks until this baby's due date. I am starting to hear sporadic Christmas songs on the radio, which is another reminder that this baby is coming soon (not that I need a reminder - my large belly and constant state of discomfort keep me pretty aware of his upcoming due date).

I am nervous to have two. I am nervous to go through the newborn stage again. I am nervous to stay home and not be working in the capacity I have been working in. Being a mom is a lot of work and it's very different to do that full time than go to an 8-5 job, especially one as crazy as mine. As difficult as my job is, I think staying home will be very hard too. I am nervous about filling the days, being able to entertain Oliver and give enough attention to him while taking care of the baby, and not going stir-crazy. I think this will be the biggest adjustment for me in the coming months. I feel it is important to be at home with our children and part of me is looking forward to it but I also think it will be really hard for me. I think I need to get into a good routine with them. If any of you stay-at-home moms have any tips for me, I would love to hear them.

This baby is moving around so much. I watch my stomach move up and down and feel my belly button being pushed out. Another thing I am worried about is what to name this little guy. I have a name picked out that I love but Wendel is not a fan. He likes the names Bolt and Moose (still - he liked them for Oliver too) and I am not a fan of those. So we have another name dilemma. I need to start thinking of other names since I don't think my first pick is going to make the cut but I am drawing a blank. I think I just love the name I have in mind so much, it is difficult to think of him being named anything else. So...any name ideas for me? I really like classic, old-fashioned names with no weird spellings. Help me out.