So a long time ago I used to blog a lot. It was fun and I liked it and I felt like I was preserving a part of me for my posterity, which is pretty cool. Plus it allowed me to share my life with my friends and family. Even when I was in graduate school, I blogged occasionally. Then I started working for CPS. I didn't really want people to know I work for CPS because I don't want to make anyone feel uncomfortable and like I'm judging them. Plus I have a lot of people out there who aren't too fond of me due to the nature of what I do (I wouldn't be too fond of someone showing up on my doorstep to investigate me either). I get that. Most of my thoughts and experiences have to do with my job and since I wasn't making my job title known, I stopped blogging. I still wanted to blog about other things but then I got pregnant and couldn't stay awake past 9:00 pm and didn't have any other time to blog. So my blog has been sporadic and boring and the only recent posts have to do with being pregnant. I'm pretty sure I lost every single reader / follower I ever had. Sorry I've been so lame.
But actually I was blogging a little bit in private. I've always been reflective and used my journal or blog to work through my thoughts and feelings so I can process things. Working for CPS is no exception; in fact, I absolutely need to work through my thoughts and feelings in order to function. I talk Wendel's ear off about work but I also need to write it out and read myself to learn, appreciate, and grow from this experience. And so I don't go crazy.
Then I decided since no one reads this blog anyway, why not make my other blog (which no one knows about) public and share it here? If you happen to stop by this dusty old blog and you happen to be interested in what it is like to work for CPS, knock yourself out. I don't have a lot of posts and admittedly, some of the content is sad and frustrating. But that's the reality of the job and of many families who are dealing with difficult things. This might not be your go-to blog for uplifting or humorous things. (If humorous is what you're after, try this one instead. It's pretty much the exact opposite of This Social Worker.)
I am hopeful that since I have more energy in my 2nd trimester, I will be able to blog more often. Encourage me! If you still happen to read this blog, leave me a comment. Let me know you are there. Signing off now, as 5:45 comes awfully early.